Oh, my God. It has been four days since I did not write my blog. Seems that I have become more and more lazy with each passing days. One thing is also mist be noticed that I have not cooked food for these days.
Well, 3rd Jan was my b'day. The day started with my father calling me to wish. Entire family wished, frankly speaking, I did not remember it at all. Later on in the afternoon J also messaged me, which at first I thougt that it was a HNY message but later on realized that it was a bday mesg. Well, I also returned her a message, a TQ mesg.
Well, in my thought, I haf removed my bday from fb account but I wasn't. Hence people who are in my fb account has wished me on fb as well as in office. As usual, they asked for treat, which I gave and it costed only 150 bucks. A very good thing for my pocket.
I don't remember anything which happened on 4th or 5th.
Sixed january. Woke up at 2pm. Startrd playing new game guns n roses, another RTS game, a nice one again. Seems that RTS are the one I like the most. Well, in the meantime I forgott to do a task which B gave me. Well, games make me forget everything.
Cab : Not a good evening as far as cab journey is concerned. The driver had a verbal fight with one of the employee. Gosh, both of them hate each other a lot but due to this fight, we got a good news that we will get a new cab from monday. Yea.
Office : It is getting dramatic in office, everyone thinks that I like B but as only I know that my love is A. The bad thing is that I am preety bad in talking about relztionship, so A also thinks the same thing. No doubt that B is more beatiful than A but its dil da mamla. The problem is that she is also trying find another guy who is far more smart than I. I am pretty sure that she is doing it to make me feal jealous. I do not what to o now. Sometimes, I think of proposing her, sometimes, think like kissing her or sometimes, jst letting her know how badly I want to hug her. I know any move will impress her but where to find that guts to do it with a girl. My only fear is that she will reject me. I don't want to be rejected again.
Hmm, came back to my room at 0830am, yes it was a stayback for us.
Feeling very sleepy, time to do some surfing and go to sleep.
See ya tomorrow(most probably)
Thursday, January 6, 2011
Sunday, January 2, 2011
02-Jan-2011
Consecutive second holiday for the year of 2011. It means that it will be an end to winter holidays and we need to go to office from the next day.
A usual sunday but very cold one. I regretted that why did I choose today to wash my clothes when went out at 10 in the morning. It was a very windy morning. Brrr, a cold one, then & there decided that there will be no outing and I will spend the whole day inside my 'razai'.
Nothing unusual nappened but I was kind of thinking about 'A'. The way she rubbed her body with mine, shown me something which I could exploit the same day but foolish me did not do anything, at least I should have pressed her boobs :-(. Okay, I ll see if she remains in the same mood the next day too, please, plz. I want to start this year with atleast my first kiss to a mature girl.
First kisss. Yes, I have many girls till my age of 11. Those were my cousin sosters. They were kissing me and deep kissing. We used to say that we took one minute from each other's life. But talk about after becoming an adult, I did not get anyone. I became a very shy guy, dramatically. So no kiss, let alone rubbing a pu**ey. Only God knows when will I give a c*mshot inside a girl. I have seen breasts( a real one ) twice though but never touched, once it was my cousin sister breastfeeding topless( I will call it as exposure of body even if she was milking her kid coz she did not have coverd her breasts. One nipple was being sucked by the kid other I could have pinched!) second I saw my maternal uncle sleeping with a girl. I entered their room when both were deep asleep and both of them were nude. I was around 11 at that time. Had I been 12 or 13 I would have taken the chance and poked that girl then and there but I was not.
Anyways, these were the thoghts which used to come to my mind every now and then. I am thinking of writting a blog on girls who came to my life and gave a chance to have relationship with me, some of them really did, but me, a foolish did not take advantage. One of the girl even called me 'not a man enogh', thogh she was joking, it felt very badly by me.
Ah, a very lonely day. Passes the day with radio, listening to commentry, not a good day as far as cricket is concerned for India, SA ard 4-224 at the end of days play. Let's hope for best for tomorrow.
A good news, little bit, I am at 118th position in farm frenzy.
See ya tomorrow, my b'day.
A usual sunday but very cold one. I regretted that why did I choose today to wash my clothes when went out at 10 in the morning. It was a very windy morning. Brrr, a cold one, then & there decided that there will be no outing and I will spend the whole day inside my 'razai'.
Nothing unusual nappened but I was kind of thinking about 'A'. The way she rubbed her body with mine, shown me something which I could exploit the same day but foolish me did not do anything, at least I should have pressed her boobs :-(. Okay, I ll see if she remains in the same mood the next day too, please, plz. I want to start this year with atleast my first kiss to a mature girl.
First kisss. Yes, I have many girls till my age of 11. Those were my cousin sosters. They were kissing me and deep kissing. We used to say that we took one minute from each other's life. But talk about after becoming an adult, I did not get anyone. I became a very shy guy, dramatically. So no kiss, let alone rubbing a pu**ey. Only God knows when will I give a c*mshot inside a girl. I have seen breasts( a real one ) twice though but never touched, once it was my cousin sister breastfeeding topless( I will call it as exposure of body even if she was milking her kid coz she did not have coverd her breasts. One nipple was being sucked by the kid other I could have pinched!) second I saw my maternal uncle sleeping with a girl. I entered their room when both were deep asleep and both of them were nude. I was around 11 at that time. Had I been 12 or 13 I would have taken the chance and poked that girl then and there but I was not.
Anyways, these were the thoghts which used to come to my mind every now and then. I am thinking of writting a blog on girls who came to my life and gave a chance to have relationship with me, some of them really did, but me, a foolish did not take advantage. One of the girl even called me 'not a man enogh', thogh she was joking, it felt very badly by me.
Ah, a very lonely day. Passes the day with radio, listening to commentry, not a good day as far as cricket is concerned for India, SA ard 4-224 at the end of days play. Let's hope for best for tomorrow.
A good news, little bit, I am at 118th position in farm frenzy.
See ya tomorrow, my b'day.
Saturday, January 1, 2011
01-01-2011
The first day of 2011. I welcome it with my both hands and hope that this year will give me something to cheer about.
I will start from 12:00am. I got up when the cellphone was ringing. It was my mom who called me up for a new year message, I also wished everybody at home. The truth is that this was the only call I use to get on new year. Great, then since I got up after such a long sleep, I started sending messages. Since nobody in my office had my number I included my name at the end. The only mistake I made is that I did not include ”Nomea”. Everyone must be wondering like Meena, a former office collegue,. She was the only who called me up asking who was I. Well, we exchanged hny and hung up the call. The year started on a high as one of a beauty called me up. Think, the year will go good.
The plan wato watch movie ”Gulliver”. Around 1:30pm I left for movie, which was scheduled for 2:20. A good thing happened again in the bus. A teen girl come asking me for India gate and sat beside me. Another good sign, althogh she was calling me bhaiya but I don't care I was happy that there was someone in Delhi who was talking with me. She seems to be in trouble. She wagoing to IG for yhe first time alone and she left her phone at home. Yes, I gave her my phone to talk to her friend, she seemed really worried ad to how would she find her frend without phone. Well at first I thought of going witn her but later on thoght that she might take it itherwise. Hence, I let her go at her destination alone. Later on I was angry with me that should have gone out with her. Well, there was nothing I could do now as the girl was lost, the only girl who spoke to me in one and a half year in delhi. Shit again.
The movie was a waste of time as well as money. Thought of another one but money came in front hence there was a no no.
That is it. No calls from J yet. She do not like me at all. Get lost sanu.
I will start from 12:00am. I got up when the cellphone was ringing. It was my mom who called me up for a new year message, I also wished everybody at home. The truth is that this was the only call I use to get on new year. Great, then since I got up after such a long sleep, I started sending messages. Since nobody in my office had my number I included my name at the end. The only mistake I made is that I did not include ”Nomea”. Everyone must be wondering like Meena, a former office collegue,. She was the only who called me up asking who was I. Well, we exchanged hny and hung up the call. The year started on a high as one of a beauty called me up. Think, the year will go good.
The plan wato watch movie ”Gulliver”. Around 1:30pm I left for movie, which was scheduled for 2:20. A good thing happened again in the bus. A teen girl come asking me for India gate and sat beside me. Another good sign, althogh she was calling me bhaiya but I don't care I was happy that there was someone in Delhi who was talking with me. She seems to be in trouble. She wagoing to IG for yhe first time alone and she left her phone at home. Yes, I gave her my phone to talk to her friend, she seemed really worried ad to how would she find her frend without phone. Well at first I thought of going witn her but later on thoght that she might take it itherwise. Hence, I let her go at her destination alone. Later on I was angry with me that should have gone out with her. Well, there was nothing I could do now as the girl was lost, the only girl who spoke to me in one and a half year in delhi. Shit again.
The movie was a waste of time as well as money. Thought of another one but money came in front hence there was a no no.
That is it. No calls from J yet. She do not like me at all. Get lost sanu.
Ups an downs of 2010.
2010.... Ffffoooooo.
If I wil say that it was a different year in some aspect from earlier years it would not be wrong bt there are some aspect for which this year could not do anything. Below is my list of ups.
1. Finally, I have a 3g phone from not only I can make or receive calls but I can also browse web, play games and also play music and how can I forgey watching videos. I love my phone.
2. Got some money in my pocket by which I am a little secured. After when it came ro call my family on an urgency in december I did not have to think about money.
3. Went for a air ride on an aeroplane for only the second time in my life. Ohh, this time it was in day time and watching clouds go below me, was extrodinary. Yes it was little scary when it landed but alls well if ends well. I did it with my own earnings this time. I do not if I will like going by train next time. Even during christmas I did not go as I was required to go in general class in train.
4. Another up was me travelling in Rajdhani exp. Oh, I did not take full advantage as I went to sleep before they can serve me anything but all in all it was a great chance. When I will have money, I will call all my family member to come to delhi by rajdhani only.
So, these were the ups, which excites me when I think about 2010. Now, it is time for some downs...
1. I am still with the same call center I was in last year. Not even tried to get out to find any IT job. This was the biggest down for me this year. My father kept on pushing but lazy me did not go anywhere.
2. Even being in the same company, I did not get any salary hike. Another dissapointing fact. I could not impress the management to give even a little hike. Motherf***ing company. The reason I am still here is that this was the company which gave me job when I did not have money to even have food but still they should give some hike.
3. Biggest failure of my life, I did nit get any pu**ey to pound this year also. That means I am still a virgin. Some might call it as an achievement and survey said that one should save sex for honeymoon but the worst point is that I did not even catch a gf. I tried with many this year also but it seems that either I will have to wait untill marriage or have to go for red light area, which I don't like. No gfs, do you know the meaning, that I am not a man enouh. I hate myself for it.
4. Someone screwed me up. That too because I allowed him. I will not go in detail.
5. Could not complete my graduation, let alone my pg. Another biggest failure. I am so confused ad to what to do and what to leave that my studies are getting delayed by year after year. God give me strength so I can find a way to complete it.
So, all in all if I see it overall, this was an year with more low than ups. Next year my first priority must be completing my studies and finding good job. If I wil have good job i ll get fantastic girls, isn't it?
If I wil say that it was a different year in some aspect from earlier years it would not be wrong bt there are some aspect for which this year could not do anything. Below is my list of ups.
1. Finally, I have a 3g phone from not only I can make or receive calls but I can also browse web, play games and also play music and how can I forgey watching videos. I love my phone.
2. Got some money in my pocket by which I am a little secured. After when it came ro call my family on an urgency in december I did not have to think about money.
3. Went for a air ride on an aeroplane for only the second time in my life. Ohh, this time it was in day time and watching clouds go below me, was extrodinary. Yes it was little scary when it landed but alls well if ends well. I did it with my own earnings this time. I do not if I will like going by train next time. Even during christmas I did not go as I was required to go in general class in train.
4. Another up was me travelling in Rajdhani exp. Oh, I did not take full advantage as I went to sleep before they can serve me anything but all in all it was a great chance. When I will have money, I will call all my family member to come to delhi by rajdhani only.
So, these were the ups, which excites me when I think about 2010. Now, it is time for some downs...
1. I am still with the same call center I was in last year. Not even tried to get out to find any IT job. This was the biggest down for me this year. My father kept on pushing but lazy me did not go anywhere.
2. Even being in the same company, I did not get any salary hike. Another dissapointing fact. I could not impress the management to give even a little hike. Motherf***ing company. The reason I am still here is that this was the company which gave me job when I did not have money to even have food but still they should give some hike.
3. Biggest failure of my life, I did nit get any pu**ey to pound this year also. That means I am still a virgin. Some might call it as an achievement and survey said that one should save sex for honeymoon but the worst point is that I did not even catch a gf. I tried with many this year also but it seems that either I will have to wait untill marriage or have to go for red light area, which I don't like. No gfs, do you know the meaning, that I am not a man enouh. I hate myself for it.
4. Someone screwed me up. That too because I allowed him. I will not go in detail.
5. Could not complete my graduation, let alone my pg. Another biggest failure. I am so confused ad to what to do and what to leave that my studies are getting delayed by year after year. God give me strength so I can find a way to complete it.
So, all in all if I see it overall, this was an year with more low than ups. Next year my first priority must be completing my studies and finding good job. If I wil have good job i ll get fantastic girls, isn't it?
31-12-2010
Hmmm, the last day. When I was kid I used to think that these special something must be happening with our life, yes it was a special day...
I came from office @ 7:30, had my breakfast, read news paper and went to sleep around 8:30. Guess when I woke up, it was not untill the the new year arrived. That means I slept for fu**ing 13 hirs that was also not until the crackers started blowing my ears
The ended, the diary ends for 2010. There will be another post of my ups and downs about this year.
Bb 2010.
I came from office @ 7:30, had my breakfast, read news paper and went to sleep around 8:30. Guess when I woke up, it was not untill the the new year arrived. That means I slept for fu**ing 13 hirs that was also not until the crackers started blowing my ears
The ended, the diary ends for 2010. There will be another post of my ups and downs about this year.
Bb 2010.
30-12-2010
This was the second last day of 2010. Anything special of this day, naaah.
Anothet day of 8 hours of sleep. I love it when I get that much sleep but the difference between today and tuesday was that I cooked also, hi hi hi. I only had to cook rice though as I already had sabji with me. Sabji is a hindi term though.
Office : A preety eventful day as we get to know that we are getiing an off for the last day of 2010, at last we get this much anticipated off but I was not that happy as with only three days off, I can not go home :-(. Anywas, we also got some login and I made exactly 4 transfers, which was required to go my xfrs(on screen) reach 300. I ended my 2010 december on a high, as far as my scores are concerned.
Hmm, let's talk about girls. Let's give a name. The girl Ilike the most is A and another girl who comes in my cab and all the guys in office think that I like her more, is B . Another one who was my best friend would be called J. So, I think J is out of my life and A does not like me while people in my office wants me to lay down with B.
Anyways, had a good talk with B but as I am the one likes flirting, flirted with B and she got upset, stopped talking with me then on, bad lick sanu. About A, it is not that I have stopped liking her but stop talking. I wanted her to start it. Well, it did not happen and as we were coming close to closing time and everyone started wishing, I accidently wished and to my surprise she wished me with utter pleasure. Wow. Then she asked for some help on fb too but there were too many people around hence I could not talk. Well, it was time for me to go home. After sitting in the cab, one of the girl told that she left her tiffin upstairs and I was the one who obliged to get her asset. Went upstairs got a chance to talk to A alone but I was looking at her yummy breast only and could not say anything, coward me, should have proposed her tonight but..... I will only be me amd only me i.e. Fu***r. She must have thought that this is not the correct guy to slep with. Shitttttt.
The day started on a high ended on a bit low.
See ya tomorrow. The last day of 2010.
Anothet day of 8 hours of sleep. I love it when I get that much sleep but the difference between today and tuesday was that I cooked also, hi hi hi. I only had to cook rice though as I already had sabji with me. Sabji is a hindi term though.
Office : A preety eventful day as we get to know that we are getiing an off for the last day of 2010, at last we get this much anticipated off but I was not that happy as with only three days off, I can not go home :-(. Anywas, we also got some login and I made exactly 4 transfers, which was required to go my xfrs(on screen) reach 300. I ended my 2010 december on a high, as far as my scores are concerned.
Hmm, let's talk about girls. Let's give a name. The girl Ilike the most is A and another girl who comes in my cab and all the guys in office think that I like her more, is B . Another one who was my best friend would be called J. So, I think J is out of my life and A does not like me while people in my office wants me to lay down with B.
Anyways, had a good talk with B but as I am the one likes flirting, flirted with B and she got upset, stopped talking with me then on, bad lick sanu. About A, it is not that I have stopped liking her but stop talking. I wanted her to start it. Well, it did not happen and as we were coming close to closing time and everyone started wishing, I accidently wished and to my surprise she wished me with utter pleasure. Wow. Then she asked for some help on fb too but there were too many people around hence I could not talk. Well, it was time for me to go home. After sitting in the cab, one of the girl told that she left her tiffin upstairs and I was the one who obliged to get her asset. Went upstairs got a chance to talk to A alone but I was looking at her yummy breast only and could not say anything, coward me, should have proposed her tonight but..... I will only be me amd only me i.e. Fu***r. She must have thought that this is not the correct guy to slep with. Shitttttt.
The day started on a high ended on a bit low.
See ya tomorrow. The last day of 2010.
Thursday, December 30, 2010
29-12-2010
Hmm, again I am late. It is by a day this time. Well, I see it as the years is coming to an end hence I am becoming a little lazy.
Let me see, the last day I slept for almotst 8 hours. This is just the opposite day. I couldn't sleep for a single minute at all. Yes, this day I was playing farm frenzy for the most of the time. The good thing was that I had cooked for me today and cooked a good meal. Hmm, it is good sometimes that we can't sleep.
Office : very less login, very less earning only 5 dollars a day. If I compare it by 40 dollars a day, it is a very disappointing day for me. Let's hope that the next month will produce some more dollar to me.
See ya tomorrow.
Let me see, the last day I slept for almotst 8 hours. This is just the opposite day. I couldn't sleep for a single minute at all. Yes, this day I was playing farm frenzy for the most of the time. The good thing was that I had cooked for me today and cooked a good meal. Hmm, it is good sometimes that we can't sleep.
Office : very less login, very less earning only 5 dollars a day. If I compare it by 40 dollars a day, it is a very disappointing day for me. Let's hope that the next month will produce some more dollar to me.
See ya tomorrow.
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